Light from Darkness

MY HISTORY OF CALLING, DARKNESS WRONG… suddenly became something totally different to me.

It became my personal story of SAUL.

I love the story in the BIBLE of SAUL.

WHY?

Because here was a man who was killing the Christians.

A voice speaks into his soul and has him question his story.

This voice and the question where no less significant for SAUL who would ultimately become PAUL then they were for ME.

Once SAUL questioned his story everything changed.

• ALL of the past.
• All of his darkness.
• All of his Violence.
• All of his Cravings.
• All of his Desires.

Become sanctified for his own Liberation.

SAUL WHO BECAME PAUL ultimately become one of the most significant driving forces for evangelism of what we know as Christianity today.

His darkness became his FUEL.
His darkness became his Empathy.
His darkness became his Compassion.
His darkness became his unconditional love for those he taught.

SO WHEN PEOPLE ASK ME HOW AND WHY I AM ABLE TO STAND INSUCH CERTAINTY AND NON-JUDGMENT OF THOSE AROUND ME?

it is because I SEE the Darkness and the Light within them.
I can love them for their darkness and their light,.
I don’t need them to SHOW UP in the LIGHT.
I don’t nee them to SHOW UP in the darkness.
I just request that they SHOW UP COMPLETELY with all of who they are.

WE LIVE IN A TIME WHEN WE HAVE FORGOTTEN THE TRUTH.
We as a people have become sedated to the TRUTH.
We have rejected SAUL within and in so doing have destroyed the possibility of rising to be PAUL.
Yes I would have you consider that your Darkenss is the launching pad for you Explosion of light.
That day my life was altered I was sitting with…

at this dentist’s clinic. They best dentist richmond I know

THE DENTAL WORK.

The ART of Loving What IT FEELS TO SERVE PEOPLE.

This simple book.

This beautiful TALK.

This simple process.

TRANSFORMED MY LIFE FOR EVER.

THE WORK has saved my marriage.
THE WORK has saved my family.
THE WORK has save my business.
THE WORK has set me free.

The only chance I ever had in life to LIVE was to question the insanity of my stories the exact same way SAUL was challenge by GOD to question his so many year ago.

In that moment came freedom.
In that moment came peace.
In that moment came power.
In that moment came LIFE in its fullness…

…unashamed of my past, living in the present and excited about the future.

I AM DARKNESS.
I AM LIGHT.
I AM HUMAN BORN TO FIGHT.
The fight?
A fight with my own stories.
So my question for you Dental Warrior?

WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ABOUT DARKNESS?

IN WHAT WAYS ARE YOU SEDATING THE REALITY OF SAUL WITHIN AND IN SO DOING SUFFOCATING THE OPPORTUNITY FOR PAUL WITHOUT?

As usual.
Would love to hear from you.

Rise from Ashes

YOUR DARKNESS IS NOT THE
PROBLEM DENTAL WARRIOR.

The biggest problem?

Feeling that you are EVIL because of it.

For most of my life I was convinced that at my soul level I was nothing more than a Vile Sinner.

It didn’t matter how many times I went to church.

It didn’t matter how many times i read scripture.

It didn’t matter how many times i prayed.

It didn’t matter how many times I used positive mantras.

I COULD NOT ESCAPE THE DARKNESS THAT PLAGUED ME.

When the religious patters didn’t work I went to…

Drugs
Sex
Violence
Video Games
and pure sedation.

I COULD STILL NOT ESCAPE THE HELL.

Then one day I was asked a simple question by a beautiful woman I had been introduced to by a friend of mine.

A question that changed everything for my reality.

“Is the darkness you feel wrong and not supposed to be?”

My immediate response? YES

She then asked me again.
Is that true?

I replied,
“Yes, of course it is.”

She then asked me a follow up question.

“Can you know with 100% certainty that the darkness you feel is wrong and not supposed to be?”
I sat for a moment.

I waited. I pondered for 30 seconds.
I then responded in a way I had never anticipated.

I said, “NO. No I can’t know with 100% certainty that my darkness is wrong and not supposed to be.”

She sat and held space with me and then continued….

“How do you behave, show up and respond to the darkness within you and in others when you believe the thought, Your darkness is wrong and not supposed to be?”

I sat in deep thought for a moment before I responded.

Image after Image filled my mind as to how I have shown up and how I feel when this thought about my darkness filled my mind.

I responded with,

• I am ashamed.
• I am angry
• I am filled with Rage.
• I am filled with Sorrow.
• I want to stay away from others.
• I don’t want to be by myself.
• I fear my own thoughts.
• I am worried that others will find out the truth about me.
• I am panicked,
• I feel deeply unworthy.
• I judge other harshly who show any sense of darkness.

ON and ON and ON I WENT.

She continued the conversation with me and ended with another question.
Can you see any productive, non stressful reason to continue to believe the thought.
“The darkness you feel wrong and not supposed to be?”
My response?
“NO”
Then she asked me.
“Who would you BE and who could you show up as in your own life and in the lives of those around you without the thought My Darkness I feel is wrong and not supposed to be?”

I looked over her shoulder to the stage that sat behind her and pondered the possibilities and as I pondered a light started to enter my soul that filled me with warmth.

A light that shined truth into the VOID of my Story.
A light that shined truth into the mouth opening, tooth shattering, DARKNESS I feared within me.
I turned and looked at her and said,

“I would be free to actually connect with those I truly care about and ultimately would give myself permission to accept all of me.”

She smiled and said,

“Oh yes sweat heart.”

Tears began to pour down my cheeks as I sat on the chair of my dentist richmond bc.. reflecting these thoughts that i encountered just a few days ago.

Liberation was upon me.

• My history of Darkness as a human.
• My history of Addiction as a son.
• My history of Violence as man.
• My history of Cravings as a dental owner.
• My history of Desires as a dentist.

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